i HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you no how i had that perfect life yesterday welll..........................lets just say i should have known better nothing is perfect ovouly .....my bestfriend might be right my bf may just want in my pants...got to love that huh...oh well he told me tonight that he doesnt want to fall in love with me ....his excuse is geting hurt yea ive used it myself thats how ik it an excuse u use when ur scared of geting into a true relationship...but get this he still wants perps likes makeing out and crap ughhhh talk about p.oed u have no idea i wanted to cry my eyes out now i just want to put him throught hell ya no. I have a bunch of friends but wheni need them there to busey (f-in,deasling with there probems that i lission to day in and day out or my favorit with there bfs...) dont u just love my bestfriends oh then my "brother" wont even answer his phone.... im going to ask tommorrow y he didnt. the only one that answers is my ex and his answer is my bf only wants in my pants cuz hes done and said the same thing ..... yes welcome to my lil peace of peridice im going to pray..... maybe ill get something there like who nos maybe god will let him call me when hes high and ill get all my answers hey it could happen he is suppost to get high tommorow...anyway...i think im going to idk cry,pary,die in a hole,text, or whire who nos im starteing to hope my bf doesnt call back tonight :( this is yellow cuz its my bfs fav color yuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your depressed emogirl :'(

i dont really no :)

i havent posted in a long time manly cuz ive been bussy cuz everythings been going right 4 the 1st time ever!!!!!! my parents like my new bf hes a s8r boy and a hot one at that lol my bestfriend is still gay but he has a thing for me lol i love him to death and he has a thing 4 me but hes GAY if he wasent gay i might would but he is so i cant /wont ....my bi friend told me she wants me oh i have 2 new bi friends lol yea im strate tho lol i love my man so much we desided to slow down tho but idc i love him ill be 15 soon so cant wait lol my parents are excepting me again but the ppl at church well thats a different story most of them love me except this one family but idc what they think cuz they dont matter everyone nos what there rep is anyway so no sence in careing what they say if ya get me....im going to be in another play this time i have a speeking part im at a sleep over lol btw friday i might be haveing one of those with 2 of my best chick friends it will be wierd tho cuz  well nvm  i cant wait till friday night tho we are haveing a bondfire and i get to hang wiff my amazeing one of a kinda bf and sister lol i supost to being doing a project but im not idc anymore its the end of the year and im sick of this stupied crap. i got new pjs cuz the ones i have are to inaprpeate for the play at church i hate not being able to wear shorts to church but oh well im hanging with some new ppl kinda got tired of the others cuz they where being babyish and not geting the fact that im me and not going to change...im writeing again while i wasent posting i had writer block but that doesnt matter cuz im back lol and better then ever :) manly cuz im with this amazeing guy who makes me poor out my heart on to a piece of paper who will never juge me or tell me im being used just cuz they may or may not want in my pants!!!!!!! sorry i have a sertain friend..... nvm back to where i was oh yea my baby lol he hates that word idc tho its hot expecly when i say it lol jk im not that conseaded and if i am plzz feel free to tell me to get off my self cuz well u have that right.im still emo but its harder to show it when a sertian friend borrows yo leggings and doesnt give them back lol love ya girl she also has my shirt and skirt. the sadest thing i have done this week is found out 2 of my friends are most likely preganit and its only monday pplz this is insane!!! one of my friends could die if she is cuz her body cant take it and the other is really younge and stupied and I hope shes not cuz the guy it would be by would run off and not help her out and then we would have to just beat him up. but enoffe about that sad stuff my dad planted a garden hes trying to bring our family closer i have a feeling hes just wasteing money but i like that stuff hes planted in it so im not complaning lol we have been spending alot of money lately to much really but it will be ok dad says i have to get off here soooo goodnight world!!!!!

The Spontanous,crazy,loveing,silly,amazeing emo girl <3